I cant help beeing this way. I want to blame someone, put the gulit in another souls heart instead. Would be alot easier. Life would. Now this is about life. Life without you in it. Cus it doesn't matter what people say. I will never heal. I know it. I may love again, I may pull my self together so much maybe one day i will leave this apartment just for the fun of it and not for the must. But I will never heal. I miss you. My mouth is shut at most times because just by saying, love, miss, your name, you, us, we, makes me cry. I can barely type it cus my fingers is burning up. I have spent 6 months without you by my side. 6 months of which I have cried every single day. Sometimes I think im just lost in my own heart ache, maybe its not you any more, its just me being sad and me forgetting i actually can smile, but then again, its you. You left me when you know we are perfect for each other. One day i came home and you just told me out of the blue that you wanted us to break up. Maybe its the way you said it, maybe because it only took took you 15 minutes to leave a relationship that lasted 5 years. Then you were gone. You are gone. But then again, its you. Y.O.U. Not the way things where said, just you. It always will be. Always has. 


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